ah, it lies heavy upon me.

Goodness. I'm afraid too much hinges upon my guessing, waiting and wondering. I think I'm being really stupid, how am I to face the things life have in store for me, when something as trivial as this weighs me down this much! It's really hard to let go and be totally cool about stuff, and I admire people who can go with the flow. Sigh, I'm not enjoying my induction into the real world, it's something I've really never thought about prior to 2008. I wish I could sit back and not bother, the way I have all my life.



It weighs heavy. And I'm telling myself, "Be cool Derek!"
(There, another update!)