To distance before you discern

I will admit I have had the most negative thoughts about people recently. I have come to dislike and to hate people with whom I have had contact in the weeks that have passed during the holidays. A good few of these people are people I have used to have a positive sentiment towards. It is unfortunate, I cannot help but experience an overbearing sense of negativity towards these people. Among these people are those I find excessively proud, guys who keep hitting on girls, people who seek to exclude others, people who think themselves sophisticated, and unappreciative people. These people, I find hard to like. Sigh. Of course I'd rather like these people, but it's so hard. I am not sure if I am acting out of contempt. Whatever it is, it is a sentiment that sticks and sticks hard for now - how to get rid of it?

There have been other things going through my mind too. Church is now a refuge!

Been long time

Long time since I've exposed myself on cornroll, not that I haven't had anything to purge out of my system (yes, unfortunately thoughts I wish to share are usually more of the negative kind), but I just haven't had the opportunity to well, go to blogger.com. Ah, so here I am back on a lazy Monday afternoon, with really nothing else better to do. It's 5pm now, I've got an hour to excrete my verbal stools before I head downstairs to play pool with a neighbour. Day of rest today, first real day of my hols actually that feels like a holi-day, because of the sheer absence of activity and the lounging around I associate with holidays that has marked the day (which started proper at around 12pm by the way heh).



Will be away from Wednesday till Christmas for most of the days, because I have signed up for 2 church camps in my church to while away the time... in more fruitful manners and pursuits. To facilitate the ease of the passing of the holi-days too. In fact I just came back on Saturday from another church's youth camp hehe. What a way to spend a month! Does take a toll though, which is why I'm trying my best to rest the best I can. Yesterday's catching of the unfortunate match at Clarke Quay wasn't good for rest and wasn't good for the easing of the Liverpool fan's mind too. =(



December looks to be spent and spent well already, the months ahead will be well spent - that is a resolve on my part because I have (in no small extent due to Gatsby) sought to improve myself during these months of freedom. Self-improvement all the way! lol. I plan to...



1) Read

2) Talk to beings

3) Exercise

4) Perhaps work



I've finally got the time to care! About people yes, about issues yes, and most of all about my soul! Time to return to a steady and close relationship with God and spend days reading His word! So important! Obviously the A Levels have not been kind to me in this aspect ("it's robbed me of many things!")



(Have actually got a good mind to shadow a church worker/pastor around for some time, but don't know who.)