Saturday, June 27, 2009

A month

And so a month just passes by like that and I dread tomorrow coming because tomorrow I'll be dreading the economics test that's the day after. I'm quite scared really because I'm inadequately prepared. I won't do well for CT2 heh. Chionging I Hist now! =.= And my sleep pattern is messed up horribly I've been sleeping at 3am and waking up at 11am the past week. And I'm sleeping on a mattress on the floor because my bed is covered by notes. Sad sad life, my room looks like it's been thrashed by a transformer machine-car-thing-machine. How about an explosion to end all this?? Oh and my body's not in the best condition too, been sneezing away the past week and a sore throat is imminent. I think it can only get worse, I need to regroup, refocus and reassemble after CT2 (as well as make substantial progress in my H3!!!). Feels like the O's all over again, but I think it'll be worse. Well I could be happier, I could be less happy.

Let's say...

we're all in character and we all play the role "Human Being". What does this role constitute of and how do we act it out? And who's the Director? And how come I'm cast as me?

Just a few posers heh. What do you think?

Thursday, June 25, 2009

Okay okay

I think I'd better start posting happy posts again before people label me as emo or something haha. Thing is I'm fortunate that I can get over things at a snap of a finger and I'm fortunate I usually forget too. I only get cranky when I lack sleep. So as of now I've really got better things to worry about like Macroeconomics and Kartik your tag was really queer and out of the blue haha and I don't recall you doing what you say you've done? and Jiawei I know that at least my sis wouldn't let that happen and I've been giving Sharpi a fair bit of loving these days to destress haha and tzeern dont worry I'm positively fine thanks mate and camellia well I guess you could but Sharpi bites and henry I don't know which post u're referring to and I made up to daniel by texting him and assuring he was okay and we're gonna have a meal soon.

There we go, and I'm so looking forward to the (end of the) CTs next week!

SPAIN LOST!!!

Wanted very much to see a Brazil-Spain final, even if its just the Confeds Cup and its not broadcast on the Football Channel. The best team ever against the team in the best form - always a tantalising prospect, but alas it's not to be. Well things don't always work out the way we want them to!

Wednesday, June 24, 2009

Life is good?

It's strange, the LIG pictures I have around these posts are starting to look rather incongruent with respect to the content I now have on cornroll. Well life is good and will remain good, but it can't quite be all fun and games and mirth and laughter all the time can it? It's so true also that while we're in the body we're the furthest from God.

Anyway this line in the song "Somewhere Only We Know" by Keane suddenly strikes something in me: "Oh simple thing, where have you gone"

Yes yes where where?

It's not fair, and I think you're really mean

It's 4.38am now and I've been stirred awake by strange thoughts - a nightmare almost. It's like suddenly all this docility I've shown on the outside has given way to some crazy rage within, to the extent that I considered screaming into my pillow. It's frustrating when someone is mean without really meaning it or being aware of it and I don't know why tonight it suddenly weighed so heavy upon me. It's terribly wrenching, to be having such mixed opinions and feelings about a person - I really don't know what to make of it, just really wished our paths never crossed before! It just... sucks. Really does, to be at the mercy of someone's whims. I think it's just the hour of the night that has my spirit as perturbed as this. Should be fine after sleep. I really don't feel like taking the Common Tests next week and could really do with a week more of holidays just to ease my soul a little. And yeah, I don't want to see you so soon too!

Tuesday, June 23, 2009

Today is my sister's birthday,

(psst you can click on the photos to enlarge them. see me in my full fat glory. the sister says I've put on weight and have lost my chin)

as well as my rabbit Sharpi's. If you think that's coincident, I happen to share the same birthday as the other rabbit we have in the home too. Haha.

Today to celebrate her birthday, my sister went out for lunch with her friends. To celebrate his birthday, Sharpi had photos taken of him with a hairclip on.

To celebrate En's birthday, there's a cake in the fridge. Sharpi has his usual hay.

Sometimes I wish I'm as unaffected by things as Sharpi is. Unfortunately I've got the ability to care... about things. Unfortunate too that this being affected burdens my mind at times!

One more thing, I fear too that I'm becoming too guarded and reclusive but it's hard to open up to just about anyone but at the same time too I've got to be coaxed out of my shell haha. If I weren't me I wouldn't really bother knowing me...!






On Glen Johnson and David Silva





So it's Johnson to Pool for a sum of 17.5 million quid or thereabouts... well arguably not a bad buy , for Johnson is indeed a quality player and one of the best in his position in the league. Yet I can't help but feel that the amount is a tad over the top even for Johnson. He's a right-back afterall! A right-back! Sure, Bosingwa and Dani Alves might well cost at least that amount too, but Johnson hasn't quite proven himself to be of their quality yet. He's only had one smashing season in 08/09, and some might say he's finally coming of age at 24 - which may be true, but only time will tell if he has what it takes to do well at a big club (granted that his experience at Chelsea earlier might have been a baptism of fire for a teenager). Age is obviously on his side and he will definitely get better... but whether he will eventually be good enough to justify the 17 million pounds remains to be seen obviously.

Well here's hoping that he would cement his place ahead of Arbeloa (if he stays) and Degen and become a mainstay in the first XI for years to come.

But did Rafa really need to strengthen the right-back slots? Obviously strengthening any position is desirable, but there are also the obvious factors like the transfer kitty and current strength of depth of the positions to consider. Arbeloa has had perhaps his best season in a Liverpool shirt and has made the position his own ahead of... the injury-stricken Degen. But I did think he was decent enough for Liverpool since Steven Finnan's departure. Come on, Real Madrid are speculated to be after him! Then there's the matter of the strength in depth. Sure, Degen was out the entire 08/09 season, but he'll be there as a back-up next season. Haven't seen him play at all, but I'm sure he'd be adequate cover for the position. Not forgetting Carragher who can shift out right with Skrtel/Agger playing in the middle. I can't wait to hear from Rafa commenting on Johnson's signing - both parties have been all quiet in the reports so far! Besides the hefty price though, I think that Johnson is a top, top acquisition.

Well I think if there were any areas that required reinforcements more than the right-back position, it'd be the attacking departments. Sure, Riera has had a number of matches where he'd looked the part on the left, but he's not been very consistent. Perhaps he'd be better equipped in his second season having been accustomed to the rough and tumble of the PL. There's Babel and Benayoun who may seem more than qualified to fill in for Riera - but Babel cannot play on the left wing, or on the wings for that matter (for he is really not all that skilled and tricky, nor fast!), and Benayoun is best saved as a match-winner/game-changer on the bench. David Silva would have been and remains to be a welcome addition - a fair bit of flair and magic has been missed since Luis Garcia exited the Shankly Gates a couple of seasons ago. Thought that Rafa would have gone all out to achieve his target of a striker this transfer season since Keane's unfortunate stint at Anfield. But Johnson seems to be the only big-name signing this window and it looks to remain at that unless funds are garnered through the sale of Alonso/Mascherano (which I am staunchly against, by the way!).

We are remarkably short of quality strikers at the moment. There's Nando and Ngog along with a host of players who have not really played extensively in the striker's role last season - Kuyt, Babel and the returning (?) Voronin. With Gerrard revelling in the free role behind the striker last season, we really just need two top-class strikers in the squad. We have Torres, and we need one more striker. That could be Babel, but he hasn't been given the nod ahead of Ngog to prove himself. It's his preferred position afterall, and he is the next Henry, no? Ngog is arguably still young, but he is nowhere near being Torres' standard yet (and perhaps never will be), or even near being an able substitute. Kuyt will almost definitely reprise his role on the right next season. What we require is not another striker on par with Torres - I'm thinking Rafa will be sticking to the 4-2-3-1 for some time, having found the spine of the team (like his Valencia team of old) in Reina, Alonso, Masch, Gerrard and Torres. Because such a striker (like Eto'o or Villa) would not be content with a place on the bench. An able substitute would be adequate. Crouch would have been a suitable choice, but even he was not content not playing.


Which is why I am for the idea of bringing in David Silva, because he brings in more than just creativity. Here are the reasons why Silva should don the Liverpool number 7:

1) There's the obvious solution to the left-wing, a long-standing problem department for the team not completely addressed yet by Riera.

2) Silva plays on either wing, so where Kuyt is injured (the one time he is in a decade or two!) he can slot in there with Riera on the left. That would really give Liverpool genuine width on both sides of the pitch! And with the midfield anchored superbly by Alonso and Masch it wouldn't compromise on the "hard" nature of the midfield. This is where Johnson's athleticism comes in too - he is able to cover adequately for Silva's (presumably) lack of defensive qualities and the absence of the hard-running that Kuyt provides.

3) By having two natural left wingers, it really gives Rafa the opportunity to free Babel from the burden of playing back-up on the left to... play back-up striker. Despite his weaknesses, I believe that Babel has sufficient strength and pace and skills and a good enough shot to be an able back-up for Torres. A striker does not necessarily have to beat or wriggle past his man (which Babel cannot do) as much as a winger has to. Babel is decent in the air as well, and I'm positive he could hold up the attacking line well enough to at least get Gerrard in.

4) Silva is an Aimar-like player. While Rafa has the undoubted pleasure of playing Gerrard in the free role behind the striker, Silva could play the same free role/supporting striker just as well in the event where Gerrard is out. Again, the anchor of Alonso/Mascherano is pivotal to Silva's inclusion in the line-up as he may appear to be a bit of a lightweight in the league.
Well after all that's been said I still don't think Pool will get Silva in - unless we sell Alonso or Mascherano, which really would not be good at all. Back to studying ASEAN...



Monday, June 22, 2009

How do you stop at nothing?

Wow facebook is proving to be a rather mighty distraction, who knew spying on people could be so time-consuming haha. I'm not expecting the hols to be extended, though my heart cries for it. Now, where have my three weeks gone?

Thursday, June 18, 2009

People stay the same

Met up with my Cat High friends last night for supper, for the second time this holidays. And they remain pretty much the same character-wise, from what I remember of them in Secondary 2. Edwin, Daniel, Henry and Luther - group of friends I usually hung out with when we were in the same class, 2-1 (and by hanging out I mean at J8, or the canteen, or in our classroom. we were/ are simple cat high boys afterall). We had prata at Casuarina, tried to spook ourselves with some ghost stories, decided not to catch a movie at AMK hub, hung out instead at AMK park's playground. It was like my sec 2 days had come back. At a time when things were simpler (by things I mean academics too!!), and people less complicated. I think no matter what they will remain the cat high boys they were when we're together. Oh, and me too I think, much as I see myself as very much more changed I go back to cat high mode in their company. That is, irritating, rather weird me.

Gnow?

Rewind a year and a half and I knew less... now I know more, but do I know better yet? Perhaps, perhaps.

(Ok acting cheem and thought-provoking aside)
Was looking through some of the photos taken in J1, taken early in J1, and I'm not sure if I would want to wind the clock back to be where I was and who I was at that point in time. Ah, and now the Panic song streams into my head - "things have changed for me"...

Well all I can say is that, thing that pretty much matters more at this point are the CTs (yep clumseh sentence I know)! Oh the gloom looms.

But I'm generally happy with the way things have been for me the past year and a half. I'm fortunate I'm not someone who is affected very much by grades, hehe. Well, math and economics remain my two bugbears. Not that the rest of my subjects are anything to shout about though. I hope I find something I can do well and joyfully and with an eternal purpose in mind in the universiteh.

On another note, the more I think about my life and how it's panning out, the more I feel fortunate. In terms of relationships, the things that matter to me, and the people who have come into my life. I am feeling a bit grumpy now and off I go.

Thursday, June 11, 2009

Day

Pretty tiring day today, spent it with classes present and past haha. It was nice that about one third of 4-4 turned up today and today I appreciated people I've never appreciated in the past! Well have found more people to talk with deeper post-A's. Will sleep well enough tonight and wake up to studeh tomorrow...

Tuesday, June 09, 2009

Aged 18

I don't know how I will react when my 18th birthday comes. Actually I don't want it to come, because I just don't really wanna grow older and 17 to 18 seems like a fair number of years! 17 entitles you to being a bit of a child - not that age is a barrier to acting like one, but it just is a bit disconcerting being so dependent at age 18. But I really can't wait for the A Levels to be over because there are so many people (about 20... maybe 30) I want to talk to regarding things that matter. Then, I will have time to properly care for people. Not to mention the church camps and end of year festivities. Reckon I'll be going overseas quite a bit too. Whatever it is I will be spending a lot of time in church and I am really looking forward to that. Can't wait and fortunately I don't have to enlist for NS two months earlier. Woo! Will the A Levels just pass please...

Now I recall the days I spent after O's. Lots of lounging around obviously, but did quite a few things too. Hooboy but am I going to spend my year end hols rather differently this year! There'll be lotsa talking that's for sure, and I think I have grown these two years.

You way now

Much as I'd like very much sometimes to judge people as being juvenile, I am constrained by well, thoughts of me! Juvenile me! There're many things I want to be/don't want to be in life.

On another note, I watched a documentary on the Neanderthal man today on Youtube. As of now I don't know enough to judge whether he really existed, and I guess I will find out the Christian perspective on this soon. (http://www.answersincreation.org/neanderthal.htm) Still not sure what to make of it. Well I guess I'm fortunate enough to have a blind faith and knowledge in the absolute truth, but thing is this faith might well be taken away from me anytime which is why I will guard it with my life. Also part of the reason I try to spend as much time as possible with fellow Christians. But the good thing is that I am fortunate too to have cultivated a thirst for conversation revolving things that matter and for reading Christian books. I don't quite need a miracle to believe that God exists, but it'd help. Or have I overlooked the miracles that occur each day, or have occured in the creation around me? Yes I think even Christians need constant reminders that God exists and to preach the Gospel to themselves in order not to drift away. It is so very important to keep close to God for it is so very easy to drift apart from God.

those dreams...Daft as they seem

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=y7hQD23KB_0

Have got problems embedding the video... so there's the link! I'm starting to love the song again.

Things are shaping up to be pretty odd!

Been listening to That Green Gentleman/ Things Have Changed by Panic quite a bit recently. It strikes something in me, just like Fluorescent Adolescent did to me two years back. It's not quite the lyrics (defo not in the case of F.A) but just the tune I guess. Balisong by Rivermaya strikes something in me too. To know more about me go have a listen to these songs. And ah, the holidays.

Tuesday, June 02, 2009

Roland Garos

So willowy, Flik-Flak man Del Potro is blowing Jo "Float like a butterfly sting like a bee" Wilfred Tsanga off the court on his own turf. Federer had earlier prevailed in a five-setter against Haas... wonder what it takes to be a world-class tennis player and how come Singapore cannot produce one...

BNP Paribas! I'll be off to sleep

Monday, June 01, 2009

To trade treasure for

A heck of a holiday is in store. There'll be plenty of studying but oh that'll be plenty of that thing sleep too. As for fun I don't think so, no, but I might just find studying fun if I do enough of it. Routine might promise a bit of fun it's been a long time since I've had a sense of routine in my life unless of course you count being routinely laidback routine. So there you go a post resembling a diarrhoea heh.