My fears were founded

Can't do much but pray

Slew

I'm sorry I'm posting a whole load of... posts in a day. It's like a... blogpost diarrhoea (what a word to spell!). It's strange, but not too long ago I felt like I wanted out of school for reasons more than academics. Wasn't a serious consideration obviously, but the sentiment was there. A year might have been just right. Two years... let's see how it goes. The dynamics of human interaction truly baffle me through and through. Which is why psychology might be appealing. Am I getting tired (not just physically)? Are people getting tired? A dosage too much of close, boxed-in day-to-day interaction? Wish beings were less sophisticated than they are. Maybe I think too much. I should get a pack of Match Attax tomorrow. Ah, the simpler things in life. I should do something without much thinking tomorrow - talk? lol lol I need to rekindle my enthusiasm for people. Have always harped upon reciprocation in relationships and now it strikes me.


Now to sleep, to sleep...

If only I could stop!

This is bad, recently I've been thinking about 'if only' and 'what-would-have-been' scenarios. It's been quelled though... a little.

Anyway, if you're wondering, I've just been thinking about what life would have been like had I ignored the distance factor in the selection of my JCs. It's not that I'm unhappy at RI(JC) - no, I'm very blessed to have been placed in 1A (and for a purpose too) and met the people I have. I'm just wondering... what life as a Victorian... might have been like for me. There are other scenarios too which tend more towards the 'if only', and I think I might accummulate more of such thoughts as I experience more of life. In the meantime though, life is good... and I am thankful for each breath.

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Yeah I wish I could talk more too

Things that matter

So today turned out to be a more emotionally charged day than usual, but thank God I was prepared. Encounters and interactions in the past few days have been very positive and edifying. Life is turning out to be very real indeed!

Seriously, CT results are the last things I'm bothered about these days. Well not just because it's just CT 1, but also because it's just so far down in the list of things that matter. That is not to say I'm totally blase about what my CT results are though, I still care because I did study haha. But things around me, things seen and things felt are just so... unimportant and temporal.

Well, but while I remain within the flesh I am subject very much to the effects things around me have on me. I am tempted, I am misled, I am clouded in vision, I am placing emphasis on less important things. It frustrates me and I am reminded once again of the frailties I have while I'm plodding across earthly ground. That's when I realize I am as powerless as a newborn. It is something I must realize. And I hope I will realize it till the end of my days - that I am insufficiently equipped to walk this narrow path alone.

I thank God, because it was really an altogether unexpected and opportune meeting. It seemed that the days before - the days of fellowship and walking closely with God - were preparing me spiritually and mentally for today. I'm glad I handled the inevitable situation the way I did even though I did choke up at moments. I thank God for the serenity and peace he gave me, the calmness of mind and the desire for the salvation of souls through the ride.

Right now though, things are far from resolved and the soul is not yet saved. I can only surrender all!

There's a louder shout to come,

a more tranquil peace and a greater joy...

Ah, anyway, here in this case, I have effectively been studying for the most part of the day, here in this case, effectively.

Ah, another 4 hours of brain work tomorrow and I'll be done... till the weekend comes and goes! Hmm the A Level life is just about starting to hit home, but till now it remains a gentle smack. On to P&P now. Got back 2 Lit assignments today and the grades weren't encouraging at all, but I've chucked them aside. My teacher might just be prejudiced against me, and my pride remains a limping shadow of Sexy Beast. Hmm that was just really random, the sexy beast part. Hope to do DY proud tomorrow, but unlikely.

Squash it, squash it!

and how freaking super duper mega hard must you study History before you feel comfortable in the exam hall?!?!?!? freaking super duper mega hard!!! not funny man, this subject.

Pool on the ascendency

A team that is truly Rafa's after 4, 5 seasons... it has been worth the wait

7Oooo...

My 700th post on cornroll! Will come by to edit this to make it more landmarkish soon. For now, it's back to international history woo!

Hmm what's important enough to feature in my 700th post... well obviously the things that matter immediately jump out at me

An awesome article by Tomkins

http://www.liverpoolfc.tv/news/drilldown/NG163701090322-0825.htm

It took Mr Ferguson 13 years to win the European Cup - it took Rafa 1

It took Mr Ferguson 22 years to reach 2 European Cup finals - it took Rafa 3

It took Mr Ferguson 4 years to win the FA Cup - it took Rafa 2

It took Mr Ferguson 230 league games to rack up 100 wins - it took Rafa 180

It took Mr Ferguson 7 years to win the title - Rafa MIGHT do it in 5!

CTs

So common tests start tomorrow... sian. But at least there's no lessons for a week and Friday's play time! I'm hungry now and I will eat lunch then study economics. Think you seriously need brains for econs manz.

Chelsea, Chelsea, Chelsea

No don't worry I'm not singing the Chelsea cheer (a truly creative one by the way), someone just told me to have the title of this post be a tripetition (3x repetition... tripetition?) of one of this year's losing quarter-finalists in the Champions' League.

So, Chelsea vs Liverpool again! Not that it wouldn't be interesting to watch, it's a fantastic match-up in itself... I'd be scrambling to watch it in the Premier League. But in the Champions' League... bring on Barca or Bayern! Or better still (for Liverpool's ease of advancement), Villareal or Porto! (Both of which, fortunately or unfortunately depending on how stupid you are, have drawn Arsenal and manure respectively. ) It's B-O-R-I-N-G! Another year of meeting a scam team with their mass-produced flags and void history.

Both the second-legs of the quarters and semis will be played at Anfield, so I guess I'd better reserve a Rome-bound ticket soon.

In Ertia

Currently at Ertia, the capital of Slackadinia...

Past 48 hours or so more have been thorougly unproductive. Looks like the state has got to invest in me to increase my output...

no wait, it works the other way - if I don't increase my output, the state wouldn't invest in me.

Whatever it is, I'm not quite programmed for hard work - unless, of course, I find my pass-ion. The search (a rather passive one actually) continues.

[edit]
Just spent the past 10 minutes or so (anything to get away from how SEA governments established control over strategic natural resources!) skimming through the undergrad courses on offer at NUS. Psychology and social work (lol) seem like courses I may be more interested in. The business admin and law double degree looks tempting and perhaps lucrative in the long-term, but I don't think I'll enjoy myself on the way to it and in it. The scientific element of Psychology ruffles me a little though hehe. But I do think it'll be a lovely course to pursue and perhaps I will finally understand what makes Edwin so retarded. Sociology is somewhat similar in that it studies behaviours (albeit of the collective), but you see, I function better as a one-to-one function. My options are still very open and far from settled though. Will think more and talk more about such matters which matter (a little) in the near future. For now, SEA HIST WOO!!!

To ponder...

Is my perception of others based on their perception of me? Hehe this can go into quite a spiral

My twitter reaction to

Senor Rafael Benitez's inking of a new deal:


DerekxIaoDidi@cornroll lOokss likE tHe rEDs r seT to ruLez 4eva! lolz lolz mAnchEster uNitEd buaiz buaix! muaCks mUaCks lolz lolz! roflllll! ciaoz

Drowning in SEA Hist...

but making progress, bit by little bit. My brain, my brain, it sputters and chokes.

Nais

"Eight goals in five days against Europe's most elevated powers. The reason for all this was Torres. The way he bore down on Vidic as he attempted to control a hit-and-hope clearance dropping over his shoulder resembled something from a David Attenborough documentary: the injured wildebeest targeted by the electric-heeled cheetah. And, as Torres arrived on his heels, the conclusion of the drama was never in doubt. "

Soul

"When it comes to people I tend to look at them as souls. You graft off the skin and chip away at the bones, and the soul is there. You talk words of love and hurl hurting insults, and the soul is pained - not the body. When you connect with someone in a conversation, you speak to the soul - not the body. And when the body falters and its functions halt... that's why I want to see people as souls."

Champions of Europe, champions of the world... and we wiped the floor with them today.

So says Gerrard.

To be honest Manchester United weren't outplayed - they were simply outwitted. The game really could have swung either way if manure had taken their chances early on in the game. But still, I'd take a 4-1 victory at Old Trafford even if the scoreline doesn't quite reflect how the teams were rather evenly matched prior to Nemanja's sending off.

These are my two favourite photos taken off LFC.TV:

An incredible week no doubt, an aggregate 8-1 victory over the best team in Europe and the best club ever in Europe. Well, that about makes Liverpool out of this planet!

Boys 1 Girls 0

I'm still not quite comfortable talking to most girls now, but its not as bad as when I was still in Cat High, where I would literally run to escape interaction with the female species - Edwin can testify to that. And when the inevitable situation of having to interact with one did occur, I would ramble some incoherent rubbish. Thought those days were long over last year, but they've come back to haunt me at times this year. I foresee myself hanging around/hiding behind the guys for some time. Wish I could talk better, talk interesting. Am I content? I wish I could be! Grah. This is quite a funny post and I hope I can come back and laugh at it in all its stupidity next time.

To orient

Gradually tending towards normalization in school... around certain people. I am an extremely odd person.

Perk, pep

Mid-week light!

Heft

There are many people around me whose shoulders I would like to help lift some weight off, but I'm not sure how...

!

Was fuming a moment ago and got as close as I've ever have to releasing steam in recent times. But I was totally owned by the patience of the customer services officer on the NS hotline. Still, I am not very pleased with how my registration for NS has been so far... it should have been done and dusted and gotten over months ago, but it still isn't just because of an irreversible option I chose on my e-registration. Small thing maybe, but it gets to me when it pops up in the midst of everything.