a kernel what?: March 2008

been sucked in and trapped- i'm in too deep!

Hey. Yay, a flurry of updates today. Well, I'm not feeling particularly emo momo at this point, but well, since I've drafted a few emo momo posts on my phone on the bus ride home, I might as well post them hehe. Besides, posting emo momo posts can be kinda cathartic in nature, I'm beginning to realize/feel. So yeah, I'm sorry I'm turning cornroll into such a gloomy page this year. Like you know, I'm growing, and things are meant to get darker and more melancholic. Much like a certain Harry Potter, haha. Hmm, yeah, it's great, I'm beginning to smile a little now while I'm typing this out. But well yeah, emo post ahead, so watch out. I'm really really sorry that you have to plow through all these (if you even do that is. Usually I just skip emo momo posts other people write altogether. But then again, I hardly read blogs save for my own) emo momo posts with hardly a clue about what I'm driving at. So yeah, I'm sorry this has to be my outlet hehe. So yeah, let the emo-ing begin yo!

Hahaha. It's super unnatural and I think it's quite funny really. Alright I'll just post the emo momo post just so you can get a laugh or something.

Okay, here goes. Emo, go!

( I'l try to punctuate with exclamation marks to make post less emo, if it even is. )

It's a wonder I'm only feeling this broken now considering the circumstances I've been in before. I think I'm channeling it towards the wrong person, but I have to channel it to someone! It's just too bad it's someone who's closed when I'm open and open when I'm closed (lol, horrid isn't it!).

But then again, I'm really making life more complicated than it is at this tender age- at this rate I'll lose the plot before I'm even 20. If there is any plot- my life isn't charted towards any direction just yet.

I...will...try...to...go...with...the...flow (ellipses inserted to create a "flowing" effect)

Sometimes I wish I was asexual.

EH, crafting emo posts are quite fun really!!

boink

the bounce comes when the wait stops.

du-du-du-du-du-du.

soothing the soul

When I turn off the light, you're out of sight.

Feels like hoooooooooooooooooooome, feels like hoooooooooooooooome!

ah, it lies heavy upon me.

Goodness. I'm afraid too much hinges upon my guessing, waiting and wondering. I think I'm being really stupid, how am I to face the things life have in store for me, when something as trivial as this weighs me down this much! It's really hard to let go and be totally cool about stuff, and I admire people who can go with the flow. Sigh, I'm not enjoying my induction into the real world, it's something I've really never thought about prior to 2008. I wish I could sit back and not bother, the way I have all my life.

It weighs heavy. And I'm telling myself, "Be cool Derek!"
(There, another update!)

hi

just dropped by to update, and to tell everyone i'm not dead yet haha. well, life's been good. campaigning week in school, very interesting!

will vote for people who i think deserve it, no obligations on my part yo.

there, an update!

A post-prandial camwhore session.

This is why, this is why, this is why, iMacs have suddenly appealed to moi- the Photobooth app. Delightful. And it's so powerful, its able to convert four normally normal and relatively cool males 2 years away from national service into total camwhores ( I have succumbed to popular belief that I am a camwhore). Point - there's a camwhore in all of us, it just requires something, a Photobooth app for example, to trigger it. So yeah, another purposeless post with photos for you people to lap up!

sibu-utiful place, sibu-utiful people

Class camp. Great place, great class, great people. What more can I ask for?

(Thank you Grace for uploading the photos, btw. It was really erm, gracious of you. )

Before setting off, at RJ, with Kartik and Qian Wei!

Our coach, but only up to the causeway!

SIBU-UTIFUL!

The sibu-utiful jetty with its sibu-utiful sojourners.

The sibu-utiful boatride across the channel to Sibu Island!

Setting up our basha tents!

Carving tent pegs out of twigs. Back to basics, baby!

Footy with the spherical-est object we could find- coconuts.

The 9th Sibu Island Coconut Balancing Competition goes to Team Slacking-while-others-were-pitching-up-the-bashas! Yay.

No, I'm really delighted that the coconut I was juggling with split dramatically mid-air, flinging drops of its decomposing content across my shirt. Chaffed, really. ( The stink was unbelievable. )

Our sibu-utiful suites for the four days! Just 20m away from a freshwater source, 20m away from a lallang field, and 20m away from the South China Sea! hurray!